I grew up in a very dysfunctional family. My family never saw me for who I really am. I was the different one. I struggled with self-confidence. I felt different and less than. My family lived from their heads and I was a very sensitive, feeling-based child. I had good heart intelligence but didn’t know it then. In fact, I felt there was something wrong with me.

I am now a 41 year old female and it has been, and continues to be, quite a journey.

I felt lost for years. I went through a great deal of depression and anxiety. I would get sick a lot. I felt “less than” for years. I didn’t believe in myself.

My path of building self-worthiness and my power has been challenging. Many many times I would look outside of myself to others for my sense of validation. I would look to relationships with a man, with other families, or with a job – all to feel safe and loved inside.

My biggest learning has been in the last two years. I am writing to you all to let you know that it is possible to find our own sense of internal worthiness. I now feel connected to my own inner knowledge, my internal worthiness, and my sense of personal power. I know that this is a continuous journey.

The irony of all of this is that as I found myself my outside life began to change. External things began to happen.

Now I’m in a wonderful relationship with a man. I am celebrating that I am in it not to feel safe or worthy, because I can now offer myself that. I am simply in it because it is time and I am ready. My reasons are healthy.